So far In the year if 2024, I have felt absolutely powerless. 

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My cat Olivia has been my emotional support for over 16 years. Every time I have ever felt sad, she's there for me. But as of lately I have been in a state/feeling of desolation and derealization - all I want is to be held. "I wish my cat was huge so I could just cuddle up in her fur and cry." I'm learning to let things be.